Stick out your toes

My sister went to her high school prom tonight. Look at how pretty. Runs in the family.
























I remember my high school prom. I had an awful hired tux, bad hair, and no date. The food was good though. I was nominated for most original dress sense, but I lost to my friend Ruth. Bitch.


The sucky thing about proms is if that you don't get another go (unless you're Lily, who's had about 23). However, they don't tell you this beforehand. They also don't tell you that it has absolutely no bearing whatsoever on anything you do for the rest of your life. If I'd known that I would have painted my nails black and worn my New Found Glory shirt.


In other news, I am currently job hunting. This time round, I have the added bonus of having some income while I'm searching. I figure I need something full time before the end of the month, otherwise I won't be able to go to Chicago this summer. Warped Tour is looking doubtful at the moment. I might plan another flight from Chicago to one of the dates in August.


I'm not sure why I'm still writing when I have a multi-pack of Fruit Pastilles downstairs.


Peace


xxo


Currently watching - Howl's Moving Castle

Hold me back in your arms

I've walked down this path a few times before. Somehow I never quite made it to the end. Now I think I know why.

Because you were always there. No matter what, you always watched me, looked after me, cheered me up when I was down. You always tried, for me, and I did the same for you. Even when the letters got torn up, and we screamed each others throats out, we were still there. Neither one of us could let go, even though we both wanted to. We both knew it could never be, but maybe somewhere we believed that love turns back time.

Now it's over. I know it more than I ever have before. I tried too hard to make things work, because I knew I could make you happy. You never really left me, I can't say why but I think it was because you cared for me, after everything that happened. We held up the bridge for too long, because neither of us could see the truth.

I've held you back for so long. Love may be blind, but it also makes you blind. I couldn't see the hurt I was causing, because everything that happened made me happy. I was so rolled up in my own world, I couldn't see what I was doing. Holding you back.

Now, after being dragged off it once again, I'm back on the path. I don't know where it takes me, but if I make it to the end, I've got a feeling I'll end up happy. But none of this can happen unless I do it on my own. I just hope there's someone to hold my hand after that final step.

I know you won't have to work to be happy, because it's long overdue for you. All you've got to do is look, and you'll find it, in the most unexpected places. I think you already have.

xxo

p.s. Hand on heart, I didn't scratch your car.

Currently listening to : My Heart Is The Worst Kind Of Weapon - FOB

You wouldn't know a good thing if it jumped up and slit your throat

I don't know what I've been turning into recently. It isn't the person I want to be. It's happened gradually but I don't even recognise who I am.

Sometimes what you need to make you realise something like this is happening is a short sharp shock, and I got mine. I ended up losing my best friend this week and I don't know if I'll ever be able to get them back.

The person I was had everything, the person I am has nothing. It doesn't take a genius to work out which one I should be.

It starts with apologies. I hope it's going to finish with happiness.

xxo

I'm officially sick. I'm up and about today though after a night of orange juice, toast, lip balm and large amounts of coughing.

Big brother is back on TV, and I couldn't care less. I stopped watching it halfway through the first series. I don't want to watch real people do boring stuff. I'd rather watch made-up people do exciting stuff.

I'm currently grabbing all the money I can to bail this place for a week and head off to the States with Lily. It's gonna be fun sleeping on couches and buses. We're gonna hit the Warped tour and all manner of fun things.

Off The Radar have gone off to record their EP, so I'm excited to hear that. You should all buy one and enrich your lives. Too much fashion and metal around these days, we need to bring back pop punk, and actually dressing nicely.

Speaking of nicely dressed pop punk, I'll be down at Music box in Manchester to see The Honeymoon Suite on Tuesday. All you lovely attractive people should come down also. Tonight I'm rolling out to another show at Fever, more for the people than the bands, in fact, only for the people. I'll watch Power's band though.

Having your own bouncy castle rules.

xxo

Currently listening to: The Honeymoon Suite - Matrimony

Currently in love with: You. Still