I wish I had one of those LA friendships where I get like 50 texts every day from all my friends asking me how I'm doing and inviting me for lunch and coffee and to parties at night.

Instead I'm stuck with this mess. Friends who call like once out of every 2 weeks. Friends who bail out on stuff cos its just not as important to them.

Whatever. Can't let this get me down. My best friend told me once that I shouldn't let people walk all over me. Seems like she's the only one who can do it nowadays.

I'm sick of trying to force things to work. If they're not gonna work then what's the point?

I'd say what I really feel if I wasn't so scared of losing the only person who really matters in my life.

xxo