Like Hellogoodbye, I'm a wimp, but a cute wimp that you want to cuddle

Of course you can only love one person fully. What's the point otherwise?

For all the talk about sex, I'm just a romantic at heart. I don't sleep around for this reason. Because sex as an act is an expression of a feeling, just like handing over flowers or writing a poem. It can mean whatever you want it to. Sex without love isn't worth anything. Yes I have had my share of it. Do I regret it? Maybe. I certainly regret the results of some of my actions, but if I hadn't been through the life I've lived, then I wouldn't be who I am today. I wouldn't be sitting here writing this. Could I be happier with my life? Yes. No one person is ever truly happy. Happiness comes in moments. If the space between these moments is filled with mediocrity, then people appear to be happy. Just as people who have bad moments more than most appear to be sad. Life in its base form is mediocre, flat, and uninteresting. It is the moments that accentuate this state that truly define a persons being. My life is full of ups and downs. I've experienced crushing depression and soaring elation, and everything in between. I wouldn't have it any other way. Every scar, every bruise, every crack in my heart and mind, is a testament to the person I am today.

I've held things back, but who hasn't. No one can say that they have lived completely deliberately, unafraid of acting and speaking exactly as they see fit. Some of us are more outspoken than others, some of us act on impulse most of the time, but we'll all, every single one of us, find ourselves in moments in our lives where we'll hold something back. I've held some things in over the past 6 months, and I've let some things out that I've hidden for a long time. I am more open and honest now than I have ever been, unashamed of who I am and where I come from, but I still have things to hide. We all do.

Tonight, every one of you should let something out that you have hidden. Bad or good, for better or worse. Live your life, unafraid, for these few small hours, minutes, seconds. Be truly yourself.

I'm going to go and lie on my bed for an hour and then write an open letter to the person in my life who means the most.

xxo